This dream is going well :)

Hey people! It's been quite some time since my last post. I miss blogging so much, but it just that I don't have so much time y'know to write about my life and stuffs. You guys missed a lot of my story! awwwwwwwwhhh,miss telling you guys about my journey :)

Okay lets begin ....,
i bet if you do read all of my posts, wait not all, some of my posts about him right, you would know who am I going to talk about now. I'm going to reveal his name today, right at this moment. His name is Mohd Hafey Ezhan bin azman. We love each other so much and we've been knowing each other since last 8months and still counting. We aren't officially in a relationship yet but our heart do. Hehehe. Why we still do not declare our status yet? Because of Spm. we both want to concentrate in spm and after spm he'll be going back from langkawi to subang and at that time we can meet each other after a very long time we've been separate. Yeah, with no denial, I miss him so much that I could be mad :( I trust him and hopefully he will be the one that I've searching for :'D

This is kinda short post, sorry guys. I gtg will update soon! pinky promise, xx

SPORTS DAY (Y)

I had so much fun during sports day, even though my face is burning because of the sun, but I don't care ! this will be the last time i'm having sports day at school. after this no more already so I freaking enjoyed it. Ohh congratulation to green house for the winning ! sadly,my house my blue house sitting in the 3rd place. but luckily not at the last place. okay that's all guys. I can't wait for buka puasa since i'm fasting today. ugh so hungry mannnn, it's okay few minutes to go! you can do it! aha k bye readers, lots of love :)

I hate you.

why you no text me? why why and why? I'm so depressed lately because of him. He kinda disappears and I don't know where has he been. I posted on his wall, yess he did reply but after that he ignores me again. He said he got problems and stuff but hey, it cant be a reason why you acted like that ! Last night, I texted him, and he replied me like 2 hours later. At that time, I was having a chemistry class at tuition and you know what? I took a risk to reply him bcs I don't want la he got mad or what right. After 2 texts or more I couldn't remember, teacher noticed that I was texting during his lesson. K fuck. and I stopped and I couldn't managed to reply him. So after the class had finished I replied him la, but then he didn't reply me back k. I was like babi la this guy. So I decided to deactivate my fb's account and I took out my simcard. So that he would never can find me after this. Serve you right. Whatever it is, after doing so I feel much relief :D No doubt, that it is a good decision ever.

TWITTER IS ADDICTIVE

I'm addicted to it, it's like my diary but a public diary cs everyone reads it. follow me! click this link http://twitter.com/#!/AthiyahAzmi

Life is not bright all the time, ready for the darkness

Love is up in the air ...

He curses me with his love

Okay I'm so in love with him ! Idc what you people gonna say about this I could care less :p there's one day I forgot the date he admitted that he loves me also and he said he wants me but then he said this is not the perfect timing yet cuz of SPM. Aiyyerr spm you're such a disturber you know -_- well, i kinda agreed bcs I said the same too so just wait whether he'll wait for me or just leaves me just like my exes. I really wish that he's different! LIKE REALLY, hmm. If he dumped me like the other boys did I would really knock down, I mean like really frustrated :/ that's why days and nights whenever I go to pray, I'll always ask to Allah for making this relationship long lasting and be the true one. Amin :) ohyeah, yesterday I showed him to mama and mama was smiling and said "woah,this boy is so cute! haa,this one mama like but make sure he got a bright future" and I was like 'HEHEHEHEHE' smile till the ears you know! haha lame -.- lol. okay that's all for today, and I'll drop you guys a picture of me kay. Chiaoo. Lots of love, xoxo

Meet me! THE BLOGGER ;D

DIFFICULT TIMES BUT YET THE SWEETEST AMONG ALL

5 JUNE 2011, was the date that for the first time I met him! I'm freakingly nervous you know. You have no idea how much I care about my personality and all bcs he totally gets me on my nerve. Firstly,he called me and asked me to go out and said he's going to loiter around sunway, and i said okay. When I first arrived at sunway, I rushed to the toilet and then called him asking where are you and stuffs. What made me getting weird was he never came out like seriously I can't find him. Totally messed up!

Suddenly, I was thinking like is he at sunway or ioi? I called him again and asked him whether he is at sunway or ioi. And you know what? He said, HE IS FUCKINGLY FUCK AT IOI. I was like "OHMYGOD!" No wonder la i can't find him.

Then,he and some of his friends took cab to come all over from ioi to sunway. And yesss finally I met him. YEAYYY. He is yuuummmmm type you know Haha LOL. I was so nervous at that time but yet I still can covered it and overcome my nervous problem. We hanged at starbuck and had some chit chat. But the annoying part was,his friend loves to disturb me and stared at me like some freaky boy. I had no spaces to walk with him. Babs betul lah.

Then, around 10.30pm mama asked me to come back home because my abah already bising like hell. She picked me up and I need to hear about her nagging thingy some more. Blablabla. After I reached home, he texted me till 1 am something. Then I called him,cs he has no credit. And we talke talked but just for awhile bcs im running out of credit. Finish ~

Praying that it will lasts longer, Amin :)

(Y)

*This is a picture of mine. Actually that jeans is not a real size of mine,I borrowed that jean from my father HAHAHA just to show a moral that yeah every girl is pretty in their own way. No matter what sizes are you,your skin tone,your height and stuff. That's doesn't matter. What you feel about yourself,that's what bringing you up as who you are. So feel good about yourself and people will look good on you!

All The Scars Try To Reopen Again

HI EVERY READERS :)

I'm so not in the mood for these few days. I know he's now at SJ already and yeah we keep planning to meet each other but okay not to keep planning. Just once,he asked me to meet up but I can't. And the other day I asked him,its his turn saying he can't. I dont mind as holidays is still longer to live. But what makes me feel turn off to him is when I saw pictures of him with this girl and I do know tht girl. I know they're just friend but HOW CAN JUST FRIEND taking pictures so closeeee like that!? Okay I admit that I'm a lil bit jealous,mhmmm NO wayyyy toooooo jealous! phewww -_- and its been two days already he didn't text me. I know he has been busy loitering with his friends and stuff bcs after this he has to go back to 'this one place' which I can't tell. Later If he read this then he would know I'm talking bout him. And one thing Im so curious is whyyy he and some of his friends keep saying that I've a scandal with 'this guy' which I can't tell his name. If I did I'm afraid he'll get offended cs I do believe that he's one of the stalker of mine. #nooffence He is not a good looking guy,and why'd I wanted to have a scandal with him? ohh puhleaseee.

Okay so for now,I just wait and see.
Thanks for the reading! xoxo

Why should I fall in love with you?

Everyone surely have been through with the situation that I'm goin through right now. The time when we love someone and talk to him/her everyday but can't tell him/her how much you love em' even though you tried to give as much signs how much they mean to you as you could. But still they never catch it. And the time when you get jealous if they talked to some other ppl of opposite sex. I really do know how you all feel because right now I have to face that kind of situation. We used to text to each other but some times he didnt text you and you wonder why he didnt text me? You feel like wanna text him first but you couldn't. You don't want to be labelled as sarcastic or desperate girl. So,hour by hour goes by and still empty screen of your phone from his text. Okay,you wait till tmrrw and there's nothing also. But few days later he text you like nothing happen. Sometimes I wondering am I special to him? Is he just goin to find me if he get bored? is he thinks that I'm nothing to him? Did he feel the same as I feel? Yeah,this kind of questions keep bothering my feeling but I tend to say to myself that If he really made for you,then he would. If not,how hard you try also,you never can be together with him. Lets the fate decides for us...

ABCDEF... I'M BACK YO

Hi! what's up readers? sorry for those who keep on visiting my blog but still no recent posts Im so sorry :( I do want to update this stuff but never get the opportunity to do it cuz of certain reasons that I can't avoid. Yeah,as exam is running now so I have to cut some of my times like blogging and etc. actually exam is not yet finish,but as tomorrow is public holiday for Hari Wesak so I'm off from studying a day. Kinda happy :D but the exam's stressful still in me. Before I forgot,I want to take this opportunity to wish Happy Wesak Day to those who celebrates it ! enjoy your perayaan in malay or celebration :)

p/s : I leave you all with some recent pictures of mine. I admit that I'm such a photoholic ! Lol

PHOTOSHOOT BY ME !

This is where the hurting starts & the nightmare begins.

She is a sensitive girl,
whenever she heard someone talking bad about her,she will cry all night,
especially when it goes to her friends.
she just love her friends so much until if she ever messed up something,
the guilt it her up inside slowly.

I'm the girl,
I cant help myself when one of my friends like ignoring me,
I would let the tears rolled down onto my cheeks and kiss my lips,
put up as many status that related to the problems of mine throuugh facebook and twitter even while blogging,
And my mood would run nowhere and it cant find it ways until the relation between me and my friend are well-repair.

I'm begging for a better life,
don't ruin my days,
as I want to face each day with a smile crossed over my lips,
Why problems always miss me?
I had give enough tears last time,
wasn't it enough as paid for you,problem?
I wonder could I ever kiss happiness? ...


mode : hurting
love,ummu athiyah azmi 2011

Profile Pictures

Profile Pictures

Event with prime minister.

ok we were attending dinner with the prime minister not as guess but as people in charged in that event.i tell you ahhh that was so terrible ! we were on duty taking vips' to their table.and so many shit things could happen at that time.cant find the table,guests were angry,and much more.here i leave you all with some coolest pictures.we're rockin that shot.

Awaaaaay again ~

I find facebook is such a waste of time.Sometimes I felt like I have sacrificed all my precious time just wanna be with facebook,chatting and stalking people.well i would love to do that everyday.hehehe.and yeah once again I deactivated my fb's account and dont know when is the reactive date.maybe a week later,a month,a year ? woww thats too long.cant survive that long lol.evenmore,im having my spm so its kinda good decision right? hope so ....

*to 'you' im waiting for you to text me or wtv lah k.since we cant chatting through fb and others.to whom that think the 'you' is refer to them,do text me k*

mode : waiting
love,ummu athiyah 2011

EXPRESSING ;)

I know you cant deny it,
from your eyes i can see the love,
where its pure and alive,

You're so sweet for me to abandon you,
I'm melting by your voice,
Shaking through your eyes,
Surrender in your arms.

Maybe you're my fate and maybe not,
I have no cares about that,
bcs life is all about trying,
no try no success.

You all i want,and I all you have,
even bruno mars is scared by your words,
justin bieber get goosebumps by your looks,
eminem runs like a dog chasing cat when you just about to talk,
and I know I'm over describing,
but I got no words anymore to describe how amazing you are,
cs you and me are all falling in love so deeply.

lets tell the world we are so in love,
like nobody are annoyed with us,
make it clean and clear,
bcs I know i'm crapping all night,
stop me now or I'll said night is just born to say 'every night is a friday night'

tell me now or i will down by my knees,crying bcs of yr ego just to tell me 'I love you'

WAIT ! NOT A FULLSTOP YET.

Hehehe from my previous post i said wanna go to sleep already aye? but you know me,ehehe always say NOT YET.fav words ever hahaha *laughing alone in a middle of night lol.now its 1.22 am already.i feel like wanna write something.just feel like typing thats why.haha :))

I'm sitting alone,
remembering about the past,
our past story that I thought gonna built our future,
but i was wrong,
again and always.

You step inside then walk away,
that's your fav routine right ?
I love you,I miss you,I need you,
that's how you shoot me,
and hell yeah you must be so expert in it,
bcs im all melting.

Our past,never be repeated,
your says just full with lies,
with the promise in myself,i would never fall in love with a man like you again.

*k thats long ! :O never thought gonna have such a long idea liddat.haha and this is so not about me k.dont misunderstood kbye,xx

Free-awhile from exam :)

ok lets started with how did I study during the monthly test.It's so stressful k when it comes to biology,chemistry,physics and addmath.ohmaigod they really such a great internal killer i tell you.I got headache,not enough slept *well its normal for spm sitters but so abnormal for me lol.

and yeah for this monthly test it took only 3 days to make us half-death.as you can see,yes we are ! this is not a created story.this is reality mayne ! urghh ok im overeact :p its not that worst hehehhe.im enough typing,and tomorrow i still have to face the school and ohh yeah ! cant wait + excited + scared + nervous = results.

bye.gonna meet you guys in a week after.
love,ummu athiyah ;)

Exam is yet to come !

i had no enough time to study all thing.must study double tripple harder than usual.and praying to Allah,ask Him to make it easy for me.insyaAllah :) and im gonna reach the A+.aminnnn :)

Would I turn like this pwetty pwetty shexxayy model ?

they're shooo pretty,they can make me envy :( wanna be on top ? haha on future,you guys will see me in magazinesssssss !

Owwmaigod ! I LOVE GLEEWW ! AHA

this musical drama gotta drive me crazy ! *vroomvroomvroom!* hahhaa.the songs are shoooo kewl i can die.lol

(Y)

i've set my mind for not spend my day too much on social network.no use i guess.especially fb,at first its entertaining but sometimes it can be so emotional when i stalking 'his' profile.idk why even he did nothing but still can feel the sorrow :/ this year im sooo gonna focussing on my EXAM ! so kennot waste my time anymore.i've to give a million success towards my parents.they're irreplacable :)

Gotta believe it !

well,its been a very-long-while no updating my blog.lots of thing happen and I kinda shocked w all that.I dont want to dissapoint any guy by rejecting their love.I've no clue what to do and why should they confessing toward me when me myself have no answer for their questions.and at last I give em hopes.well,i never ever meant to do that but i dowan em to think that im such a heartless.moreover,the guilts eat me up when i have to reject em.cs i do well know how it looks like to being hurt.for sure,i have a crush on someone and that's the top reason why i cant accept them instead no loving em right.actually,i just reactivated my fb's account and offing my phone awhile due to my heart-stress.girls know what i mean better :p

"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."

I USUALLY AM A CHEERFUL PERSON, BUT ONCE YOU DID SOMETHING BAD TO ME THE WORLD WILL TURN UPSIDE DOWN AND I CAN HARDLY TO STAND UP ALONE

What you've to learn is ....

Learn from your past and get ready for the consequences of yr mistake.

Prepare for being rejected and remind yourself that it is a fate and you've done your best.

Keep telling yourself 'IT'S OKAY'

Whenever you feel bad, tell yourself 'I'M FINE'

Believe in your decision and once you had say it, no turning back and no regret. And no matter what happen believe in fate. Whatever will happen in our future theres must be something behind all this (:

When its dark enough, you will see the star. When its raining you will find rainbow behind it. When theres no star, you will see the moon that always be there.

Expect unexpected things

Sometimes we dont have any idea why is some thing happen to us. We always asked to ourself, what? why? and how?. And this is what has happened to me lately. I used to ask myself the same questions. But still, no answer. PAST COME TO VISIT MY FUTURE. Its so unexpected when you left me before, for the reason that you cant love me more than yr ex. I tried to accept that even i hardly to move on but at last i did it. I'm lost contact with you bcs i dont want to be labelled as relationship's disturb-er. Yeah as i thought you come back looking for me. but i expect just as friend. thats what i expect at the beginning. But suddenly, you came to me and want me back. Its not as easy as the first time i accepted you. Way way difference. I cant love you as deeply as before. And I cant get rid of thinking that your the liar and the one had broke my heart into very tiny pieces and make my life miserable. That words will always stick in my mind and written on yr head everytime i see you. No sorry, bcs I talk the truth. And some says that tell the truth and accept it even its hurt. This is what you've to pay for what you've done at past.